Sad !!

Feeling Emo

Nostalgic memories being sparked by some objects , as i cleared some stuffs.

I just want my friends to know that only feelings matters , my feelings for all my close friends will always stay within me for as long as i can remember it.

Whether we are been contacting , meeting or whatsoever , it does indeed matters some.

As meeting one another for any enjoyable activities will enhance our bond together and to form new memories , but i just want all my friends to know that what's done cannot be undone , any form of memories that are created before be it enjoyable or not is done and cant be changed , time has past and it wont return.

All those memories will be in my brain till the time that i totally cant recall it , but those memories wont be lost , it will just be under a section of my brain when normally i wont remember it unless something sparked it.

So , whether we are still in contact or not , those feels are still inside me and i hope that all of my close friends will be with me till the die we die if possible.

It's been quite long since i blogged

I just wanted to blog something simple , life sucks in SCDF , cant smoke , eat shit , no freedom etc, and the worst is the cordial drink -.- , machiam drink plain water.

Everyday same routine , and wake up at 5am ! wtf

damn boring lor , everyday doing almost the same thing , train , eat , train eat , like that nia , -.-

Doomsday

!!! ok its been quite long since i posted .

Nth much to say also , just to say that , recently damn suay , mahjong kept lose -.- , LUCK COMEEEE ARRGHHH

ok , i hope doomsday come earlier and everybody can die together happily =D

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With fate controlling 50% of my life , at least its what i think la.

I meant that fate controls half of everybody lives when u are born , ur family , parents , siblings , appearance , character and etc , the other half is what u can change though what circumstances you are born into , you will likely just follow fate for the rest of your life.

Reasons ??! Cos most humans are lazy and w/o the determination to change your life , if half of your life can be changed for the better through hard work , it doesnt sound too bright also.

Y just change half of your life when u can change all , from total poverty to rich !

Cos to me it just seems impossible , changing half of your life is already incredible , example from poverty to average.

Well for a lot of stuffs , u cant change it at all , like ur appearances , how much surgery u been through , u still had ur basic look.

Ur parents , family , the situation u are born in , example parents are just mere cleaners , or u are born with 6 fingers , 1 hand , etc etc

All these well can be change ? But the scar will still stays within.

No matter how u try to change ur character as it builds up through ur circumstances , your old character will still resides within , as the sayings goes , a leopard will never change its spots.

So concluding that fate controls 50% of our life aint that bullshit right?

As least its what i thought , its how i live my life , so i felt that trying to change a life is damn tough with the results being only 50% zzzz

Well , for the good looking and well to do family , or talented , genius person , you are born great for certain , all the more your future seems bright as u are machiam born to have a bright future , with ur 50% already so bright , ur self-esteem , confidence will naturally be higher then those that are born average or bad , so everything that u attempt to do will definitely be much much easier , if it seems easy to change ur other 50% to be great , why not ?

Thats y ppl that are born to be a failure tends to had depression , low self-esteem and suicide.

Cos it just seems so hard to change their 50%. not to say the other 50% cant be changed.

So , fate has its own ways to do stuffs , sad to say , ppl that are born to be not so bright has to work much harder to catch up to others.

Well this is just life , there always have to be cleaners to clean our stuffs , ppl to sweep the floor , ppl to be prostitute , there will definitely be all kinds of lvl of ppl , ugly ppl , average ppl and good looking ppl , same with the jobs.

Cos the world doesnt want everybody to be a Boss , the world doesnt want everybody to be pro and definitely not everyone to be good-looking.

Well maybe cos if everybody is good-looking , everybody is a boss or a pro , such words wont even exist. Words i meant ( good - looking , boss and pro )

Dont understand ? maybe this phrase can make u understand.

Noobs are needed for pros to be born.

This world is built with unfairness , so it can be exciting i suppose?

I dunno , i am nt the one who created it also.

Hmmm , since i am born to be bad at least in some ways or more,

I will try to live my life as entertaining and fulfilling as i can before the day i cant.

Cos people that are pro-er than me in a way or two , make life hard for me.

People that have power , set those laws , people that are more fortunate make those less fortunate seems more less fortunate , as humans will never change.

All humans seek power , wealth , and everything nice to make their life better and the others around them worst only.

Be it directly or indirectly , humans will tend to be more and more proud when they are more and more better than others , this is just life ba , since fate decide that everybody should not be born equally.

But i think why not also , if u are born to be good looking just flaunt it , cos fate has treated u kindly and not to some others , right.

The only reason can be cos ur parents are good to you in this way thats y u deserve it ? LOl

If u are rich and powerful all the more u should flaunt sia , cos u work hard for that and u totally deserve it.

Everything is fixed , money , power etc

When ppl get rich , they will indirectly harms others as they get poorer

Same goes to power

Conclusion : Everybody sins , as they seek for a better life

Only when the moment you fail yourself is the moment you are free of sins.

TO ZJ

Dont say i never post la , i at least one month post one hor , and NORMALLY its damn freaking long , so it can be considered as a lot of daily post liao D:

Naruto shippuuden movie 3 IS OUT ON JAP DVD TODAY.

But only Chinese sub -.- , sian English sub still need to wait.

i am waiting for english sub now and some friends to dota , so cya =D

And , anything call my hp , try not to sms me , i cant hear the sms sound.

Time to Own some noob motherfuckers!

Bye~

LOL

Ok , this title will let jd laugh at cos its hilarious ? LOl or just plain dumb , haha

Quite a number of stuffs happened during the period of my last post.

As i am looking at my last post i think i will post one more ba , nth much to do also.

A lot movies never watch in theaters though its nt so nice la cos i watched online.

Well heck , not much ppl to jio to watch also plus recently i am just so damn vexed and busy with my cso zzz.

-.- , cso is hellll especially being posted in a place where u must work a lot -.- , singapore is so damn hottt , no air-con fan nt on , etccc

working in a hot weather will get ppl heaty and frustrated easily , haha.

Well , hmm about friends , the definition i really needed to go find it sia , or else cant understand how it work and cant solve any problems that arise.

nevertheless , nobody will die losing any friends , gaining any friends or had no friends at all , just that life will be more boring being a loner , haha.

Well , i suppose anything that happen i just take it in my stride to let others be happy even when it makes me unhappy , well that is just me , if ppl dont mind losing me as friend , so be it =)

Nobody needs one another to survive , u just need to learn how to be independent , pride also matters a lot in this case , especially to people who cant lose their pride , haha.

It takes 2 hands to clap also , so whatever problems that cant be settled by you urself , bo bian u need to see the face of the other party also .

till nowwwwww busy liao , cyaa

Hmm Hmm

I know i never spend much time decorating my blog or whatsoever as u all know.

LOl

Hmmm , zijie is very hardworking , almost posting everyday , bing chen and meng yang is quite slack with their posting , wei xian , also slack la.

As for me , also slack la , i rarely post , sometimes got mood to post but just lazy ?!

Not always got something which i got the urge to post it but most of the time its laziness , anyway anything that i posted only my readers get to know it and its like less then 10 person ?! ( definitely )


Meng yang post is quite funny , though some of the stories seems profound to me , as i dont understand it -.-

And some is boring , lol , so when i am bored then i will read it , whatever.

Only when i am bored will i post or read other blogs.

It's a way to kill time also , but when reading touching , inspiring stories , etc.

It really tempt me to blog out my thoughts , etc .

But on 2nd though , its nothing much also -.- , meng yang blog about what he feel of something all is his opinions which i like sia , as in virtual world is a place for u to voice out what u feel , limiting to those people who want and u allow to hear ur thoughts.

If u blog about daily life happening , hmmm , its nt that boring ?!

Even when ur that particular post is really interesting , what interests me most is knowing on a particular day , time , or what particular event that sets the blogger thinking , giving out opinions , which he/she didnt had a chance to directly say it out loud , so he/she decided to post it in a virtual world , well at least people definitely feel much safer or feel more comfortable , posting in a virtual world , immediately posting is recommended cos if u drag , u may not remember it fully or laziness will stop u from posting or u may feel its not that important to post it anymore.

Doing anything on impulse , base on instinct is not that good after all , but what is ??

Something maybe is right when u do it base on ur instinct , but when u spent time thinking how to do it , maybe u will do the same thing and waste the time that u spent , if u spent time thinking and instead do the wrong stuff even though u had wasted ur time making a precise decision based on what u think , aint that worst?

Though people may think that , having spent time thinking , deciding on a decision means that they are not doing in on impulse on instinct or whatsoever and letting themselves be more secure about the decision , even if they made a wrong decision they may not regret as much as when they do it on impulse , but they dont realise , only when on that critical situation will their brain function to its max trying to do something right* so doing something base on instinct on critical situation aint that bad after all.

If u are thinking whether to head left or right , without any clues or even when u tried to find clues , all the clues* are base on ur knowledge to deem that it really is clue and aint a fucking piece of useless objects.

But if u base on instinct , if ur instinct sense nth , u base on ur luck.

Rather then wasting time deciding on where to head , god knows if something is going to kill u anytime and u are spending ur fucking time , u just fucking head to where ur luck or whatsoever leads u to.

Anyway , this all maybe is just pure bullshit cos its all base on what i think , LOL.

When its a critical situation , not god knows , even i know u wont spend ur fucking time thinking and just head wherever ur brain leads ur legs then ur legs lead u to without spending time pondering.

=D , long long time one post , can tok many ppl de daily post liao , so compared to length , i posted a lot days le

SHit

Ai ya , just a short post , knn if we win some team then will lose to the exact same team , wtf ?!!

That meant that we dont totally own them , or i say we are nt better then them , cos we can even lose to them -.- , oh man this is total , bullshit............

Only by nt losing to the exact same thing everytime u challenged it , can u declare u are better then them.

Losing is bullshit , When we lose , we must revenge and try our BEST TO WIN !!

Ok , some people dont have this mentality -.- , thats y they heck .

Well , if i had confident i can win smt , i will definitely try to win it , no matter how many times i lost.

Alive Blog

Ok , to stop people from announcing that my blog is dead , i hereby declare that www.rivalbotak.blogspot.com IS A PRO AND ALIVE BLOG , objective completed , mission accomplished.

Now to the next objective that is ( I dunno what is the next objective )

Mission accomplished.