Christmas Eve Present

3 dec my court -- 4 dec wx court , say want go wx court and celebrate edmund birthday on 3dec of december, at least i decided on those stuffs.

But never get to do it , cos inside CPC , bo bian lor . Hope to see wx at least for once on dec 3rd inside CPC but also didnt get the chance zzzzzz. ps.

Wanna know what happened to wx , but only get to know around one week later , when my parents visited me for the first time and i ask them.

Glad to know that he got probation , though its also boring , but better then in prison ( Yeah )

Well , used and quite suited to night life , but bo bian , though inside a lot ppl got say how to breach probation safely , got one also kept confirm can , but i told him , there's nothing as confirm to me , 99.9% still can , i just dont really take confirm as a word in my dictionary , though it really is in the dictionary , just not mine la , LOl

Its too important a word to be taken lightly , so i dont dare to use it =D

Though at some instant , the outcome is so damn obvious that miracles cant happen .

Oh ya , i dont like the word *miracle* also , those type of words that is not absolute , seems pointless to just speculate the outcome. We cant hope for a miracle to happen , though if we can make something happen ---- It wont be a miracle , right?

If there's a possibility of a different outcome ---- the word *confirm* cant come in right ? 99.99% the most right?

So for people who actually read my blog , these are just info to know me better =D , even if i really said those words , its either in jest or i am just speculating.

Yea , speculating the outcome while using the word *confirm* , its being said out of my mouth , but in my heart i dont meant it , haha , no matter what are the odds , nothing is absolute , i think!

Ok , inside 3 weeks is hell , will only be specific about the details when i got the mood.

Inside i am thinking of nth much , the most only daydream , wont got emo mood , or a weird feeling that will be enhance with emo songs ( which i love , cos the lyrics is fabulous ! )

Maybe cos its too uncomfortable inside , with restrictions and i knew i wont be out.

While i am secure , comfortable and delighted at home =) , so i can be myself without worrying about anything , and when i got nothing delightful to do while at home , those emo moods will generate ?

This is how i think of it la , but all kind of feelings that people felt makes ur life colorful !

quite long bo see jd , first time see him , when he visit me when i am out of jail , his hair is longer !

Wx hair is shorter , the rest still same i suppose , character same , feelings same , haha

3 weeks still ok i think , if 1 year , still remember me , but feelings will change somehow i suppose.

Ok gtg sleep soon . Night , my Readers !

Last but not least , my Christmas Eve Present is either rtc or probation , but seeing wx , my prejudice case , others inmates telling the odds of my case , my probation officer and parents telling me the outcome of my case , i am quite certain that i will get probation as my present , but still nervous as always =D.

Always remember ! There's no right or wrong in this world. There's no fairness in this world also! Everything is determined by humans , flawed human follow flawed rules set by flawed people ( no matter how clever or amount of authority a human has , he/she is flawed.)

16 more days to go

16 more days and u are out !!

I will be posting at intervals !!

Went pub with sanford and ah yong , lol with ah yong definitely nt fun.

Haha i am as sick as u now , kept cough like fuck and sick.

Same illness siol.

Going out need see people de to be fun like i told u , w/o u , all the fun is reduced.

With ah yong , we nt close and with his character definitely nt really fun.

As in we need more own ppl , then got outsiders also fun , we can do our own stuffs.

Sanford jio then i go sia , give him face , cos i sick , broke and w/o u just seems moodless.

Been going through our photos tgt , including reagen and ah quan also =(

Miss ah quan also , long time never see him le.

Wait u out and w/o probation or etc then we go play again ba.

Our photos of our group together definitely bring nostalgic memories , now only left me and reagen !! Ah quan always busy and rarely in contact and u been inside !

Whatever i do and whenever i go , some stuffs will just spark the memories that we once had , and those nostalgic memories which i wont forgot , each of my bro de memories all will be stored inside me and never be erased .

Haiz , with those memories yet u are nt around now just felt weird. Waiting for u to be released to create new memories =)

Random

Well , i wonder if the horoscope is really true?

Though i believe in horoscope but nt fully , maybe only 70% ?

I , myself , dont even know how much i believe in something , well i believe cos i am just a typical human living in this vast , cruel and pathetic world.

Only the fittest can survive , this is totally true.

There are a lot of species living in Earth , tons of organism , but not all can compromise and survive together , one thing for sure ; Not all species said the same language.

Since we cant communicate with one another , we do not know what one another wants , BUT one common thing that can be sense with our 7th sense , which is the common sense and it is Survival.

Yet we humans kills ants , lizards , bugs , tiger , sharks , snakes , etc.

Cos they invade our privacy , attempt to harm us , steal our food , steal our oxygen , steal our properties , steal our space and whatever reasons that humans can think of , be it totally ridiculous , as its humans nature to find a scapegoat for whatever wrong we had committed.

This meant that its impossible to wash away one sins.

Well , my conclusion is , even the same type of species cant live in harmony , why even bother to care about other species.

Last but not least , only the fittest survive be it any species.

Hope for a War against all , only the fittest one or family can survive. =D

Life is short , we live to die.

Time heal all wounds but the consequences is , time kills.

Quotes

Read many quotes , from different blogs , either extracted from other " average people " or from those people that are qualified to quotes short but meaningful theories on life.

I said those ppl that are qualified cos , they studied a lot , have good qualification , a lot of people believed what they wrote and i believed that what they wrote makes sense also =) , using short and simple words to summaries one piece of the complicated puzzle of life , as i find life to be countless of pieces of puzzles , one simple quote cant fully summaries it.

Those "average people " are people like u and me , their quotes aint many ppl read it , aint many ppl believe in it and they dont hold high qualification , like Masters , Doctorates which makes them more "clever" as people will said it and thus more qualified to quote.

But i believe , every quote that make people , if its logical la , its after careful and thoroughly
thinking then they wrote it and it consists of either what they experienced of life or what they think of life or even what they think of their life.

Or maybe , they read quotes from all over , and devise their own quotes after studying what quotes other people quoted with different meaning.

What u typed , i believe if it makes sense to you , thats what matters the most i suppose unless u wanna propaganda it or u wanna gain fame , recognition , power!? through those "meaningful" quotes that u quoted.

Though people with qualification will gain fame , recognition and etc faster with their quotes , as people believed they deserve it as they got those qualification which not all people can get it. For those really talented , i admire them and they really deserve to live.

Not to say that average people sucks , but just they doesnt contribute to life as much as people of higher qualification since its a realistic world out there that sees ur qualification More then ur iq or eq ( they are lazy to do these test that i think matters more ) .

Everybody will be motivated and work hard , if there is a purpose in doing so only.
So this means all people that are deemed "lazy" by others , is just that they didn't find their purpose in working hard for that particular stuff , they will work hard some day after they found their purpose , well there's gonna be something that somebody will like right =D.

So u and me , average people , we doesnt deserve as much to live as those Talented people =)
Reasons are simple , u should know it as well as i do .

IF NOT U REALLY DONT DESERVE TO LIVE , GO JUMP AND BE SLAYER .

P.S JUMP HIGHER THAN THE 10 STOREY COS GOT A BOY JUMP FROM 9 STOREY AND HAVEN DIE SO CANNOT BE SLAYER , MUST INSTANT DEATH OK . D:

Weird

hmm, everything to me is ever changing , examples are friendship , kinship and everything else la.

Nothing stays forever , time changes everything , cos with time then will be effect , time affects everything , we do different things every single seconds , thats y everything changes.

So i dont dare to group stuffs too closely or too offensive , who knows , enemies might become friends someday , so if i had enemies just let it be rivals and nt arch-rivals.

If i have friends , let it be , and not buddy , close-friends , good friends maybe it still can be grouped but buddies and stuffs are too *serious* , anything can happen , even through games , work or school stuffs we can drop from buddies to just normal friends as argument can occur.

So its best to decide and weigh everything carefully before u make any unnecessary changes though u can change them anytime , we can be buddies today , after a quarrel , enemies the next day.

But if u keep on changing those somehow *serious* decisions that u made , firstly u dunno what the other party thinks and secondly , u will regret ur decision that u made the first time.

Last but not least , ppl who kept on changing what they think about something , is seems as indecisive and are not really that welcome.

yoyo

yoyo , here to post smt new for u all to read !!

Recently had been tired easily !! last time can ton till damn late now cant damn late liao , oh no !!

And i was always hungry during midnight but damn lazy to cook =x

well , since nth to do only can watch anime or movies , or rotting.

When i was tired i felt like sleeping , but then freesky had some stuffs to wait to do , so cant sleep yet =x and it can be for hours , lol , killing time watching movie , and ton , anyway having patience and perseverance is a good sign =)

I started late in the garena game freesky , to be the proest , i needa spend more time on it , cos i dont wanna spend money , a bit waste to spend on these kind of games , example : maple.

Those online mmorpg , u just need to spend more time u can get proer , y waste ur money ?

If u dont have time to spend its ok also , just a game , unless u really wanna win others.

Having a goal or having a purpose in life makes it more meaningful , likewise in everything else , be it games , sports or w/e , if u just do smt for the sake of being force ?

U wont end up doing well , even if u had talent in that particular stuff.
Do it for others unwillingly ? also same .
If its willingly it wont fare that well too , cos its for others .

Doing it cos u set a goal in it , or u have a purpose in it , u will excel.
U will put in more effort to make ur goal realise and purpose fulfilled , thats why =D

If u lack a purpose or goal in doing smt , maybe u haven found it yet or u really doesnt value that particular stuff . If u doesnt value it , u wont have a goal , and whats ur purpose of doing that stuff?

Either forced , killing time or u havent found the merits yet.

I had a purpose in playing freesky , to get free gm =D initially.
My goal at first was just to claim all the free gm quests.

But after i claimed all , the game was quite stupid as it was simple to understand everything , it just takes time. Nothing was really difficult or complicated , the graphic was below average to me , the gameplay was a waste of time , really a game to kill time.

But since i claimed gm , its a waste of my effort initially to play and i can kill time , cos it doesnt requires much attention , only some from time to time , so i wait till the time is required then i go do it.

While waiting , i can play dota , etc , at least i got a variety of things to do , if not it will be so damn bored.
Its for people that are free from time to time and not all the time =D , though the more time u spend on it , the better it will be =) , but still it aint need so much time like other rpg games , example : maple ( u can spend 24/7 on it because theres nth for u to wait while playing the game)

Also some of my friends are playing also , friends that are playing the same game together is much more fun =D .

1.Got one more topic to talk about ( while outside )
2.We can bond while playing together ( though quarrels may occur )
3.Got friends to aid u in the game ( if they bad friends , can harm u also )
4.Got friends to accompany u playing the game or chatting in the game ( though they may ignore u )
5.U can realise which of ur friends are not worth making by points 3 and 4 ( A game may be minor , if minor stuffs can hurt ur friendship , its not worth even making xD )

What i believed

Fate is the real mastermind of people's life though you can choose to fight it , even if you win , you only can win one battle at a time , given how many battles are there in an average human life , what are the odds?

Not to consider , when you are born with ur intellectual , genes , looks , parents , siblings etc . Its all been decided , for that part fate had obviously won , u cant fight that.

Well all that u are born with u can change them , or i say that it will automatically change , cos what ur parents and siblings do, u couldn't fully control them , but yet it will affect u somehow as they are ur family and its fixed.

As for u urself , ur intellectual , looks , gifts , talents or disability all can be changed too , though people said that the original is the best , well there's no right or wrong in this question , whether its been artificially enhanced or its the original there's both good and bad cases.

Like u can take pills for a stronger body or mind , but it might have side effects in the long run or some people are allergic to the pills while some are not. So everything had good and bad.

But if u had a worst fate , its definitely hard to fight against it , if u are born gifted , well most of the stuffs are easy for u , if u are disabled , definitely life is gonna be tough.

There are cases where people can paint beautifully with their legs ! But they definitely been through a lot then people who paint with their hands. Whatever u do , no matter how hard u try to fight it , fate definitely wins (overall).

And i believe that life is totally not fair , surely there's people that fate are biased on.

That's why they had gifts , while some don't . That's why there are pretty and ugly girls , handsome and ugly guys.

While the 2nd half of your life are earned by u urself , but its inter-linked with the first , as everything that happened before affects what happen after , aint that right and obvious?

U reap what u sow , u work hard before , u will get ur rewards after. ( Simple example )

So what happen when u are born , all is inter-linked with what u wanna do in ur life.

U can give up when fate is cruel to u or fight it , fighting it is tough but at least it makes ur life easier after u reap what u sow , LOl .

When fate totally loves u , ur life aint so complicated , u can find ur path easily and achieve success easily , but the term " u reap what u sow " still comes in after all.

People who said that life is fair , or fate is fair etc are all bullshit , u need to open ur eyes wider , when u are born disabled means u will have good parents ? Or means u will be rich ?

When u are gifted means u will have a terrible family ? What u are born with , DEFINITELY aint the same as everyone else , confirm plus chop , everyone will have a different life , it aint the same when u weigh it .

If not y the african kids are so pitiful ? born terrible , life after they are born also is terrible, lmao

Get a life , those blind asses. Oh and the term motherfucker is just so nice* to use it , LOl.

Well since 2nd half of our life are governed mainly by us , still a better life can go on =) (after some hard work , of cos)

Moral of the story : U reap what u sow after fate had toyed with u and be contented with what u have to be free of worries.

P.S : What i meant to be contented with what u have means to be really CONTENTED , even if u are born blinded or with only a few years to live and had to suffer pain for 24hrs per day , be CONTENTED and just R.I.P or else u will start whining like me =)