Saturday, December 26, 2009

Christmas Eve Present

3 dec my court -- 4 dec wx court , say want go wx court and celebrate edmund birthday on 3dec of december, at least i decided on those stuffs.

But never get to do it , cos inside CPC , bo bian lor . Hope to see wx at least for once on dec 3rd inside CPC but also didnt get the chance zzzzzz. ps.

Wanna know what happened to wx , but only get to know around one week later , when my parents visited me for the first time and i ask them.

Glad to know that he got probation , though its also boring , but better then in prison ( Yeah )

Well , used and quite suited to night life , but bo bian , though inside a lot ppl got say how to breach probation safely , got one also kept confirm can , but i told him , there's nothing as confirm to me , 99.9% still can , i just dont really take confirm as a word in my dictionary , though it really is in the dictionary , just not mine la , LOl

Its too important a word to be taken lightly , so i dont dare to use it =D

Though at some instant , the outcome is so damn obvious that miracles cant happen .

Oh ya , i dont like the word *miracle* also , those type of words that is not absolute , seems pointless to just speculate the outcome. We cant hope for a miracle to happen , though if we can make something happen ---- It wont be a miracle , right?

If there's a possibility of a different outcome ---- the word *confirm* cant come in right ? 99.99% the most right?

So for people who actually read my blog , these are just info to know me better =D , even if i really said those words , its either in jest or i am just speculating.

Yea , speculating the outcome while using the word *confirm* , its being said out of my mouth , but in my heart i dont meant it , haha , no matter what are the odds , nothing is absolute , i think!

Ok , inside 3 weeks is hell , will only be specific about the details when i got the mood.

Inside i am thinking of nth much , the most only daydream , wont got emo mood , or a weird feeling that will be enhance with emo songs ( which i love , cos the lyrics is fabulous ! )

Maybe cos its too uncomfortable inside , with restrictions and i knew i wont be out.

While i am secure , comfortable and delighted at home =) , so i can be myself without worrying about anything , and when i got nothing delightful to do while at home , those emo moods will generate ?

This is how i think of it la , but all kind of feelings that people felt makes ur life colorful !

quite long bo see jd , first time see him , when he visit me when i am out of jail , his hair is longer !

Wx hair is shorter , the rest still same i suppose , character same , feelings same , haha

3 weeks still ok i think , if 1 year , still remember me , but feelings will change somehow i suppose.

Ok gtg sleep soon . Night , my Readers !

Last but not least , my Christmas Eve Present is either rtc or probation , but seeing wx , my prejudice case , others inmates telling the odds of my case , my probation officer and parents telling me the outcome of my case , i am quite certain that i will get probation as my present , but still nervous as always =D.

Always remember ! There's no right or wrong in this world. There's no fairness in this world also! Everything is determined by humans , flawed human follow flawed rules set by flawed people ( no matter how clever or amount of authority a human has , he/she is flawed.)