LOL

Ok , this title will let jd laugh at cos its hilarious ? LOl or just plain dumb , haha

Quite a number of stuffs happened during the period of my last post.

As i am looking at my last post i think i will post one more ba , nth much to do also.

A lot movies never watch in theaters though its nt so nice la cos i watched online.

Well heck , not much ppl to jio to watch also plus recently i am just so damn vexed and busy with my cso zzz.

-.- , cso is hellll especially being posted in a place where u must work a lot -.- , singapore is so damn hottt , no air-con fan nt on , etccc

working in a hot weather will get ppl heaty and frustrated easily , haha.

Well , hmm about friends , the definition i really needed to go find it sia , or else cant understand how it work and cant solve any problems that arise.

nevertheless , nobody will die losing any friends , gaining any friends or had no friends at all , just that life will be more boring being a loner , haha.

Well , i suppose anything that happen i just take it in my stride to let others be happy even when it makes me unhappy , well that is just me , if ppl dont mind losing me as friend , so be it =)

Nobody needs one another to survive , u just need to learn how to be independent , pride also matters a lot in this case , especially to people who cant lose their pride , haha.

It takes 2 hands to clap also , so whatever problems that cant be settled by you urself , bo bian u need to see the face of the other party also .

till nowwwwww busy liao , cyaa

Hmm Hmm

I know i never spend much time decorating my blog or whatsoever as u all know.

LOl

Hmmm , zijie is very hardworking , almost posting everyday , bing chen and meng yang is quite slack with their posting , wei xian , also slack la.

As for me , also slack la , i rarely post , sometimes got mood to post but just lazy ?!

Not always got something which i got the urge to post it but most of the time its laziness , anyway anything that i posted only my readers get to know it and its like less then 10 person ?! ( definitely )


Meng yang post is quite funny , though some of the stories seems profound to me , as i dont understand it -.-

And some is boring , lol , so when i am bored then i will read it , whatever.

Only when i am bored will i post or read other blogs.

It's a way to kill time also , but when reading touching , inspiring stories , etc.

It really tempt me to blog out my thoughts , etc .

But on 2nd though , its nothing much also -.- , meng yang blog about what he feel of something all is his opinions which i like sia , as in virtual world is a place for u to voice out what u feel , limiting to those people who want and u allow to hear ur thoughts.

If u blog about daily life happening , hmmm , its nt that boring ?!

Even when ur that particular post is really interesting , what interests me most is knowing on a particular day , time , or what particular event that sets the blogger thinking , giving out opinions , which he/she didnt had a chance to directly say it out loud , so he/she decided to post it in a virtual world , well at least people definitely feel much safer or feel more comfortable , posting in a virtual world , immediately posting is recommended cos if u drag , u may not remember it fully or laziness will stop u from posting or u may feel its not that important to post it anymore.

Doing anything on impulse , base on instinct is not that good after all , but what is ??

Something maybe is right when u do it base on ur instinct , but when u spent time thinking how to do it , maybe u will do the same thing and waste the time that u spent , if u spent time thinking and instead do the wrong stuff even though u had wasted ur time making a precise decision based on what u think , aint that worst?

Though people may think that , having spent time thinking , deciding on a decision means that they are not doing in on impulse on instinct or whatsoever and letting themselves be more secure about the decision , even if they made a wrong decision they may not regret as much as when they do it on impulse , but they dont realise , only when on that critical situation will their brain function to its max trying to do something right* so doing something base on instinct on critical situation aint that bad after all.

If u are thinking whether to head left or right , without any clues or even when u tried to find clues , all the clues* are base on ur knowledge to deem that it really is clue and aint a fucking piece of useless objects.

But if u base on instinct , if ur instinct sense nth , u base on ur luck.

Rather then wasting time deciding on where to head , god knows if something is going to kill u anytime and u are spending ur fucking time , u just fucking head to where ur luck or whatsoever leads u to.

Anyway , this all maybe is just pure bullshit cos its all base on what i think , LOL.

When its a critical situation , not god knows , even i know u wont spend ur fucking time thinking and just head wherever ur brain leads ur legs then ur legs lead u to without spending time pondering.

=D , long long time one post , can tok many ppl de daily post liao , so compared to length , i posted a lot days le

SHit

Ai ya , just a short post , knn if we win some team then will lose to the exact same team , wtf ?!!

That meant that we dont totally own them , or i say we are nt better then them , cos we can even lose to them -.- , oh man this is total , bullshit............

Only by nt losing to the exact same thing everytime u challenged it , can u declare u are better then them.

Losing is bullshit , When we lose , we must revenge and try our BEST TO WIN !!

Ok , some people dont have this mentality -.- , thats y they heck .

Well , if i had confident i can win smt , i will definitely try to win it , no matter how many times i lost.

Alive Blog

Ok , to stop people from announcing that my blog is dead , i hereby declare that www.rivalbotak.blogspot.com IS A PRO AND ALIVE BLOG , objective completed , mission accomplished.

Now to the next objective that is ( I dunno what is the next objective )

Mission accomplished.

Christmas Eve Present

3 dec my court -- 4 dec wx court , say want go wx court and celebrate edmund birthday on 3dec of december, at least i decided on those stuffs.

But never get to do it , cos inside CPC , bo bian lor . Hope to see wx at least for once on dec 3rd inside CPC but also didnt get the chance zzzzzz. ps.

Wanna know what happened to wx , but only get to know around one week later , when my parents visited me for the first time and i ask them.

Glad to know that he got probation , though its also boring , but better then in prison ( Yeah )

Well , used and quite suited to night life , but bo bian , though inside a lot ppl got say how to breach probation safely , got one also kept confirm can , but i told him , there's nothing as confirm to me , 99.9% still can , i just dont really take confirm as a word in my dictionary , though it really is in the dictionary , just not mine la , LOl

Its too important a word to be taken lightly , so i dont dare to use it =D

Though at some instant , the outcome is so damn obvious that miracles cant happen .

Oh ya , i dont like the word *miracle* also , those type of words that is not absolute , seems pointless to just speculate the outcome. We cant hope for a miracle to happen , though if we can make something happen ---- It wont be a miracle , right?

If there's a possibility of a different outcome ---- the word *confirm* cant come in right ? 99.99% the most right?

So for people who actually read my blog , these are just info to know me better =D , even if i really said those words , its either in jest or i am just speculating.

Yea , speculating the outcome while using the word *confirm* , its being said out of my mouth , but in my heart i dont meant it , haha , no matter what are the odds , nothing is absolute , i think!

Ok , inside 3 weeks is hell , will only be specific about the details when i got the mood.

Inside i am thinking of nth much , the most only daydream , wont got emo mood , or a weird feeling that will be enhance with emo songs ( which i love , cos the lyrics is fabulous ! )

Maybe cos its too uncomfortable inside , with restrictions and i knew i wont be out.

While i am secure , comfortable and delighted at home =) , so i can be myself without worrying about anything , and when i got nothing delightful to do while at home , those emo moods will generate ?

This is how i think of it la , but all kind of feelings that people felt makes ur life colorful !

quite long bo see jd , first time see him , when he visit me when i am out of jail , his hair is longer !

Wx hair is shorter , the rest still same i suppose , character same , feelings same , haha

3 weeks still ok i think , if 1 year , still remember me , but feelings will change somehow i suppose.

Ok gtg sleep soon . Night , my Readers !

Last but not least , my Christmas Eve Present is either rtc or probation , but seeing wx , my prejudice case , others inmates telling the odds of my case , my probation officer and parents telling me the outcome of my case , i am quite certain that i will get probation as my present , but still nervous as always =D.

Always remember ! There's no right or wrong in this world. There's no fairness in this world also! Everything is determined by humans , flawed human follow flawed rules set by flawed people ( no matter how clever or amount of authority a human has , he/she is flawed.)

16 more days to go

16 more days and u are out !!

I will be posting at intervals !!

Went pub with sanford and ah yong , lol with ah yong definitely nt fun.

Haha i am as sick as u now , kept cough like fuck and sick.

Same illness siol.

Going out need see people de to be fun like i told u , w/o u , all the fun is reduced.

With ah yong , we nt close and with his character definitely nt really fun.

As in we need more own ppl , then got outsiders also fun , we can do our own stuffs.

Sanford jio then i go sia , give him face , cos i sick , broke and w/o u just seems moodless.

Been going through our photos tgt , including reagen and ah quan also =(

Miss ah quan also , long time never see him le.

Wait u out and w/o probation or etc then we go play again ba.

Our photos of our group together definitely bring nostalgic memories , now only left me and reagen !! Ah quan always busy and rarely in contact and u been inside !

Whatever i do and whenever i go , some stuffs will just spark the memories that we once had , and those nostalgic memories which i wont forgot , each of my bro de memories all will be stored inside me and never be erased .

Haiz , with those memories yet u are nt around now just felt weird. Waiting for u to be released to create new memories =)

Random

Well , i wonder if the horoscope is really true?

Though i believe in horoscope but nt fully , maybe only 70% ?

I , myself , dont even know how much i believe in something , well i believe cos i am just a typical human living in this vast , cruel and pathetic world.

Only the fittest can survive , this is totally true.

There are a lot of species living in Earth , tons of organism , but not all can compromise and survive together , one thing for sure ; Not all species said the same language.

Since we cant communicate with one another , we do not know what one another wants , BUT one common thing that can be sense with our 7th sense , which is the common sense and it is Survival.

Yet we humans kills ants , lizards , bugs , tiger , sharks , snakes , etc.

Cos they invade our privacy , attempt to harm us , steal our food , steal our oxygen , steal our properties , steal our space and whatever reasons that humans can think of , be it totally ridiculous , as its humans nature to find a scapegoat for whatever wrong we had committed.

This meant that its impossible to wash away one sins.

Well , my conclusion is , even the same type of species cant live in harmony , why even bother to care about other species.

Last but not least , only the fittest survive be it any species.

Hope for a War against all , only the fittest one or family can survive. =D

Life is short , we live to die.

Time heal all wounds but the consequences is , time kills.