For JD again

Hmmmm , nowadays i rarely view others de blogs or go to my own blog le , unless i am really very bored.

Since ytd jd ask me to blog again , oh well , here i am .

I always got nothing much to do but the feeling of blogging still makes me lazy to , maybe cos its really boring and not much people want others to know their stuffs ?

If its embarrassing stuffs , who will want others to laugh at them and stuffs.

If its something that you are proud of , others will be jealous of u and will said that u are either bragging or its all fake.

So since different people have different opinion of stuffs , every words that you type , u must be prepared to face the consequences of ur actions and listen to what other's comments.

Especially when someone felt strongly different about ur opinion on certain stuffs , maybe in the end both of u are still neutral about it , but the small bicker or what about *lame* different opinion will just hurt any r/s.

Anyway , i had many different opinions about stuffs also , and as i said before , what i view about *feelings* is just different from others and only JD felt different and will made an action and think its something serious .

Well to others , nth much change and nothing much will made me be serious about it unless it threaten my life to some certain extent , still i believe that we live to die.

Oh ya , i dreamt that i played dota with JD hahahaha though its been sooo long since we last played tgt , guess sometimes dreams are about the past. ^@^

For JD

Since tam jian de , my close bro said for my blog the latest post is 2010 , here i am posting , muahaha.

Well , starting i almost everyday blog , even though i had to work more then 10 hours , almost everyday , but that work was with my bros also , well tiring but quite enjoyable =) , so still got the mood to blog.

And starting got the drive and passion to kept blog , post photos , videos etc , but now sian liao la , starting to be 1 month per post without phots , now very long le , hahaha.

Anyway my blog aint dead lor , only update slow only. Since now i in Ns also , dont have much time , i am very lucky to be in CD , as a medic also , heard that medic has one of the best working hours, about drill wise its also not bad la , its not very slack and not very tough , average to me lor , cos we are like quite slack also haha , just save people can le , where got time for drills when people lives are at stake every moment??

Well its quite a slack job , firstly i was lucky to go to tuas fire station where there are not much calls for ambulance , but likewise , everything got Good and Bad , tuas station is much slacker compared to other stations but our OFF days we need to go for more shit.

2ndly , tuas fire station de people , majority are not bad , so its good =)

As for where i was working , the medics side , it was generally good also , so had quite a pleasant NS life there =) .

For CD medic , the working hours are considered good le and as the job to save people depended on us , we had quite a heavy responsibilities , do smt wrong confirm kena scolded , maybe charged to go DB or have a guilty consciences as lives cant be saved , well , you need to handle patients , their family members , friends etc

Your conscience , careful when in dangerous environment , always travelling cos in ambulance so its not really a safe job , cannot fear blood and most impt of all , cannot hum ji and back out , whether its in a dangerous environment , see gross scenes , stupid bystanders ask u hurry up , scold u etc , patients family members scold u etc .

And still got many many stuffs , hohoho , just like any other jobs in this world or i say NS .

But the good thing is cos this vocation requires us , for most of the time to be independent , there are not so many rules or stupid shit to govern us , we are like on our own , master everything , do everything on our own and just try our best lor , cos NS medic nia , 2 years and fuck off !

And not like dogs , people ask u to do the lamest things , like to punish u for whatever stupid reasons , control and restrict what are u doing , what u eat , when u sleep , all these shit , so i quite like it to be independent , i do my own and you do ur own , nobody controls one another for STUPID SHIT , its not even for a important reason -.- , nobody likes to be controlled eh , all loves their own freedom for a good cause.

So i am lucky i never get into driver , storeman or all those slack vocations , slack vocations are good , maybe everyday do nth impt or nth much , then go home , then go work , everyday same routine , it might be bored , but for 2 years only , just tahan and fuck off , but i dont really like it , cos maybe too bored or too strict or too useless.

Its like what u are doing aint had a great significance , i know everybody had their roles in lives and i admit every roles is important , just like we need people to massage us , to serve us our drinks , to be waiter , to clean our streets , our garbages and to let us fuck ^@^ .

But still there is a clear and obvious different in power and cash for each jobs , better paying jobs definitely is better with more $ and more power , someone who is ur maid , definitely need to hear orders from u ? though they are important also , hoho.

Ok lazy type le , night

Sad !!

Feeling Emo

Nostalgic memories being sparked by some objects , as i cleared some stuffs.

I just want my friends to know that only feelings matters , my feelings for all my close friends will always stay within me for as long as i can remember it.

Whether we are been contacting , meeting or whatsoever , it does indeed matters some.

As meeting one another for any enjoyable activities will enhance our bond together and to form new memories , but i just want all my friends to know that what's done cannot be undone , any form of memories that are created before be it enjoyable or not is done and cant be changed , time has past and it wont return.

All those memories will be in my brain till the time that i totally cant recall it , but those memories wont be lost , it will just be under a section of my brain when normally i wont remember it unless something sparked it.

So , whether we are still in contact or not , those feels are still inside me and i hope that all of my close friends will be with me till the die we die if possible.

It's been quite long since i blogged

I just wanted to blog something simple , life sucks in SCDF , cant smoke , eat shit , no freedom etc, and the worst is the cordial drink -.- , machiam drink plain water.

Everyday same routine , and wake up at 5am ! wtf

damn boring lor , everyday doing almost the same thing , train , eat , train eat , like that nia , -.-

Doomsday

!!! ok its been quite long since i posted .

Nth much to say also , just to say that , recently damn suay , mahjong kept lose -.- , LUCK COMEEEE ARRGHHH

ok , i hope doomsday come earlier and everybody can die together happily =D

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With fate controlling 50% of my life , at least its what i think la.

I meant that fate controls half of everybody lives when u are born , ur family , parents , siblings , appearance , character and etc , the other half is what u can change though what circumstances you are born into , you will likely just follow fate for the rest of your life.

Reasons ??! Cos most humans are lazy and w/o the determination to change your life , if half of your life can be changed for the better through hard work , it doesnt sound too bright also.

Y just change half of your life when u can change all , from total poverty to rich !

Cos to me it just seems impossible , changing half of your life is already incredible , example from poverty to average.

Well for a lot of stuffs , u cant change it at all , like ur appearances , how much surgery u been through , u still had ur basic look.

Ur parents , family , the situation u are born in , example parents are just mere cleaners , or u are born with 6 fingers , 1 hand , etc etc

All these well can be change ? But the scar will still stays within.

No matter how u try to change ur character as it builds up through ur circumstances , your old character will still resides within , as the sayings goes , a leopard will never change its spots.

So concluding that fate controls 50% of our life aint that bullshit right?

As least its what i thought , its how i live my life , so i felt that trying to change a life is damn tough with the results being only 50% zzzz

Well , for the good looking and well to do family , or talented , genius person , you are born great for certain , all the more your future seems bright as u are machiam born to have a bright future , with ur 50% already so bright , ur self-esteem , confidence will naturally be higher then those that are born average or bad , so everything that u attempt to do will definitely be much much easier , if it seems easy to change ur other 50% to be great , why not ?

Thats y ppl that are born to be a failure tends to had depression , low self-esteem and suicide.

Cos it just seems so hard to change their 50%. not to say the other 50% cant be changed.

So , fate has its own ways to do stuffs , sad to say , ppl that are born to be not so bright has to work much harder to catch up to others.

Well this is just life , there always have to be cleaners to clean our stuffs , ppl to sweep the floor , ppl to be prostitute , there will definitely be all kinds of lvl of ppl , ugly ppl , average ppl and good looking ppl , same with the jobs.

Cos the world doesnt want everybody to be a Boss , the world doesnt want everybody to be pro and definitely not everyone to be good-looking.

Well maybe cos if everybody is good-looking , everybody is a boss or a pro , such words wont even exist. Words i meant ( good - looking , boss and pro )

Dont understand ? maybe this phrase can make u understand.

Noobs are needed for pros to be born.

This world is built with unfairness , so it can be exciting i suppose?

I dunno , i am nt the one who created it also.

Hmmm , since i am born to be bad at least in some ways or more,

I will try to live my life as entertaining and fulfilling as i can before the day i cant.

Cos people that are pro-er than me in a way or two , make life hard for me.

People that have power , set those laws , people that are more fortunate make those less fortunate seems more less fortunate , as humans will never change.

All humans seek power , wealth , and everything nice to make their life better and the others around them worst only.

Be it directly or indirectly , humans will tend to be more and more proud when they are more and more better than others , this is just life ba , since fate decide that everybody should not be born equally.

But i think why not also , if u are born to be good looking just flaunt it , cos fate has treated u kindly and not to some others , right.

The only reason can be cos ur parents are good to you in this way thats y u deserve it ? LOl

If u are rich and powerful all the more u should flaunt sia , cos u work hard for that and u totally deserve it.

Everything is fixed , money , power etc

When ppl get rich , they will indirectly harms others as they get poorer

Same goes to power

Conclusion : Everybody sins , as they seek for a better life

Only when the moment you fail yourself is the moment you are free of sins.