Christmas Eve

Still remembering ; 2 years ago de Christmas eve , where i just got out from remand , a date i wont forget as i will be released during Christmas eve ( such a date for celebration who can forget sia ) , not bad though , can celebrate Christmas eve and Christmas but go in is already damn jia lat !!
Then got house celebration with families , relatives ( all father side de family members ) not bad for a families gathering as u know , its rare for so many people to gather tgt to chit chat , makan some stuffs and etc , just to be together.
Well , the celebration is triggered by me and mainly for me , as they know i will be released on Christmas eve so they planned a celebration beforehand and told me when they visited me some days before that.
We shared our release date with everybody in the cell also , all said not bad to be release on Christmas eve , at least can celebrate ( but we all know its hell's hole in there , need to get out asap regardless of what date ) .
So still , its a celebration for somehow the wrong purpose , well its a happy occasion for me as i am released !!
No need to suffer in hell anymore !
And knowing that there's a celebration even made me happier ( not for the fact that i am already happy as i am released ) , as finally we can all gather around to eat turkey ! Yea they brought that for me cos they know that i love turkey.
Well its a fact that turkey is delicious , as least quite*
Still a celebration for the wrong reason to me la .
I'm fine if there's a celebration or not as its not initiated by me and its not something glamorous but happy that there's one.
Well , one excuse that its once a year , Christmas eve !!! Christmas is public holiday so most ppl doesnt need to work !
2nd excuse is that i am finally released !! Can celebrate to get rid of all the bad luck and etc and to help me get back on track and tried to lighten up my mood.
Definitely i felt bad , celebrating cos released from remand -.- .
But still not bad for a gathering , for ppl to find time to come and slack , eat , chit chat tgt , etc etc , hohohohoohoh.

For JD again

Hmmmm , nowadays i rarely view others de blogs or go to my own blog le , unless i am really very bored.

Since ytd jd ask me to blog again , oh well , here i am .

I always got nothing much to do but the feeling of blogging still makes me lazy to , maybe cos its really boring and not much people want others to know their stuffs ?

If its embarrassing stuffs , who will want others to laugh at them and stuffs.

If its something that you are proud of , others will be jealous of u and will said that u are either bragging or its all fake.

So since different people have different opinion of stuffs , every words that you type , u must be prepared to face the consequences of ur actions and listen to what other's comments.

Especially when someone felt strongly different about ur opinion on certain stuffs , maybe in the end both of u are still neutral about it , but the small bicker or what about *lame* different opinion will just hurt any r/s.

Anyway , i had many different opinions about stuffs also , and as i said before , what i view about *feelings* is just different from others and only JD felt different and will made an action and think its something serious .

Well to others , nth much change and nothing much will made me be serious about it unless it threaten my life to some certain extent , still i believe that we live to die.

Oh ya , i dreamt that i played dota with JD hahahaha though its been sooo long since we last played tgt , guess sometimes dreams are about the past. ^@^

For JD

Since tam jian de , my close bro said for my blog the latest post is 2010 , here i am posting , muahaha.

Well , starting i almost everyday blog , even though i had to work more then 10 hours , almost everyday , but that work was with my bros also , well tiring but quite enjoyable =) , so still got the mood to blog.

And starting got the drive and passion to kept blog , post photos , videos etc , but now sian liao la , starting to be 1 month per post without phots , now very long le , hahaha.

Anyway my blog aint dead lor , only update slow only. Since now i in Ns also , dont have much time , i am very lucky to be in CD , as a medic also , heard that medic has one of the best working hours, about drill wise its also not bad la , its not very slack and not very tough , average to me lor , cos we are like quite slack also haha , just save people can le , where got time for drills when people lives are at stake every moment??

Well its quite a slack job , firstly i was lucky to go to tuas fire station where there are not much calls for ambulance , but likewise , everything got Good and Bad , tuas station is much slacker compared to other stations but our OFF days we need to go for more shit.

2ndly , tuas fire station de people , majority are not bad , so its good =)

As for where i was working , the medics side , it was generally good also , so had quite a pleasant NS life there =) .

For CD medic , the working hours are considered good le and as the job to save people depended on us , we had quite a heavy responsibilities , do smt wrong confirm kena scolded , maybe charged to go DB or have a guilty consciences as lives cant be saved , well , you need to handle patients , their family members , friends etc

Your conscience , careful when in dangerous environment , always travelling cos in ambulance so its not really a safe job , cannot fear blood and most impt of all , cannot hum ji and back out , whether its in a dangerous environment , see gross scenes , stupid bystanders ask u hurry up , scold u etc , patients family members scold u etc .

And still got many many stuffs , hohoho , just like any other jobs in this world or i say NS .

But the good thing is cos this vocation requires us , for most of the time to be independent , there are not so many rules or stupid shit to govern us , we are like on our own , master everything , do everything on our own and just try our best lor , cos NS medic nia , 2 years and fuck off !

And not like dogs , people ask u to do the lamest things , like to punish u for whatever stupid reasons , control and restrict what are u doing , what u eat , when u sleep , all these shit , so i quite like it to be independent , i do my own and you do ur own , nobody controls one another for STUPID SHIT , its not even for a important reason -.- , nobody likes to be controlled eh , all loves their own freedom for a good cause.

So i am lucky i never get into driver , storeman or all those slack vocations , slack vocations are good , maybe everyday do nth impt or nth much , then go home , then go work , everyday same routine , it might be bored , but for 2 years only , just tahan and fuck off , but i dont really like it , cos maybe too bored or too strict or too useless.

Its like what u are doing aint had a great significance , i know everybody had their roles in lives and i admit every roles is important , just like we need people to massage us , to serve us our drinks , to be waiter , to clean our streets , our garbages and to let us fuck ^@^ .

But still there is a clear and obvious different in power and cash for each jobs , better paying jobs definitely is better with more $ and more power , someone who is ur maid , definitely need to hear orders from u ? though they are important also , hoho.

Ok lazy type le , night

Sad !!

Feeling Emo

Nostalgic memories being sparked by some objects , as i cleared some stuffs.

I just want my friends to know that only feelings matters , my feelings for all my close friends will always stay within me for as long as i can remember it.

Whether we are been contacting , meeting or whatsoever , it does indeed matters some.

As meeting one another for any enjoyable activities will enhance our bond together and to form new memories , but i just want all my friends to know that what's done cannot be undone , any form of memories that are created before be it enjoyable or not is done and cant be changed , time has past and it wont return.

All those memories will be in my brain till the time that i totally cant recall it , but those memories wont be lost , it will just be under a section of my brain when normally i wont remember it unless something sparked it.

So , whether we are still in contact or not , those feels are still inside me and i hope that all of my close friends will be with me till the die we die if possible.

It's been quite long since i blogged

I just wanted to blog something simple , life sucks in SCDF , cant smoke , eat shit , no freedom etc, and the worst is the cordial drink -.- , machiam drink plain water.

Everyday same routine , and wake up at 5am ! wtf

damn boring lor , everyday doing almost the same thing , train , eat , train eat , like that nia , -.-

Doomsday

!!! ok its been quite long since i posted .

Nth much to say also , just to say that , recently damn suay , mahjong kept lose -.- , LUCK COMEEEE ARRGHHH

ok , i hope doomsday come earlier and everybody can die together happily =D

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With fate controlling 50% of my life , at least its what i think la.

I meant that fate controls half of everybody lives when u are born , ur family , parents , siblings , appearance , character and etc , the other half is what u can change though what circumstances you are born into , you will likely just follow fate for the rest of your life.

Reasons ??! Cos most humans are lazy and w/o the determination to change your life , if half of your life can be changed for the better through hard work , it doesnt sound too bright also.

Y just change half of your life when u can change all , from total poverty to rich !

Cos to me it just seems impossible , changing half of your life is already incredible , example from poverty to average.

Well for a lot of stuffs , u cant change it at all , like ur appearances , how much surgery u been through , u still had ur basic look.

Ur parents , family , the situation u are born in , example parents are just mere cleaners , or u are born with 6 fingers , 1 hand , etc etc

All these well can be change ? But the scar will still stays within.

No matter how u try to change ur character as it builds up through ur circumstances , your old character will still resides within , as the sayings goes , a leopard will never change its spots.

So concluding that fate controls 50% of our life aint that bullshit right?

As least its what i thought , its how i live my life , so i felt that trying to change a life is damn tough with the results being only 50% zzzz

Well , for the good looking and well to do family , or talented , genius person , you are born great for certain , all the more your future seems bright as u are machiam born to have a bright future , with ur 50% already so bright , ur self-esteem , confidence will naturally be higher then those that are born average or bad , so everything that u attempt to do will definitely be much much easier , if it seems easy to change ur other 50% to be great , why not ?

Thats y ppl that are born to be a failure tends to had depression , low self-esteem and suicide.

Cos it just seems so hard to change their 50%. not to say the other 50% cant be changed.

So , fate has its own ways to do stuffs , sad to say , ppl that are born to be not so bright has to work much harder to catch up to others.

Well this is just life , there always have to be cleaners to clean our stuffs , ppl to sweep the floor , ppl to be prostitute , there will definitely be all kinds of lvl of ppl , ugly ppl , average ppl and good looking ppl , same with the jobs.

Cos the world doesnt want everybody to be a Boss , the world doesnt want everybody to be pro and definitely not everyone to be good-looking.

Well maybe cos if everybody is good-looking , everybody is a boss or a pro , such words wont even exist. Words i meant ( good - looking , boss and pro )

Dont understand ? maybe this phrase can make u understand.

Noobs are needed for pros to be born.

This world is built with unfairness , so it can be exciting i suppose?

I dunno , i am nt the one who created it also.

Hmmm , since i am born to be bad at least in some ways or more,

I will try to live my life as entertaining and fulfilling as i can before the day i cant.

Cos people that are pro-er than me in a way or two , make life hard for me.

People that have power , set those laws , people that are more fortunate make those less fortunate seems more less fortunate , as humans will never change.

All humans seek power , wealth , and everything nice to make their life better and the others around them worst only.

Be it directly or indirectly , humans will tend to be more and more proud when they are more and more better than others , this is just life ba , since fate decide that everybody should not be born equally.

But i think why not also , if u are born to be good looking just flaunt it , cos fate has treated u kindly and not to some others , right.

The only reason can be cos ur parents are good to you in this way thats y u deserve it ? LOl

If u are rich and powerful all the more u should flaunt sia , cos u work hard for that and u totally deserve it.

Everything is fixed , money , power etc

When ppl get rich , they will indirectly harms others as they get poorer

Same goes to power

Conclusion : Everybody sins , as they seek for a better life

Only when the moment you fail yourself is the moment you are free of sins.

TO ZJ

Dont say i never post la , i at least one month post one hor , and NORMALLY its damn freaking long , so it can be considered as a lot of daily post liao D:

Naruto shippuuden movie 3 IS OUT ON JAP DVD TODAY.

But only Chinese sub -.- , sian English sub still need to wait.

i am waiting for english sub now and some friends to dota , so cya =D

And , anything call my hp , try not to sms me , i cant hear the sms sound.

Time to Own some noob motherfuckers!

Bye~

LOL

Ok , this title will let jd laugh at cos its hilarious ? LOl or just plain dumb , haha

Quite a number of stuffs happened during the period of my last post.

As i am looking at my last post i think i will post one more ba , nth much to do also.

A lot movies never watch in theaters though its nt so nice la cos i watched online.

Well heck , not much ppl to jio to watch also plus recently i am just so damn vexed and busy with my cso zzz.

-.- , cso is hellll especially being posted in a place where u must work a lot -.- , singapore is so damn hottt , no air-con fan nt on , etccc

working in a hot weather will get ppl heaty and frustrated easily , haha.

Well , hmm about friends , the definition i really needed to go find it sia , or else cant understand how it work and cant solve any problems that arise.

nevertheless , nobody will die losing any friends , gaining any friends or had no friends at all , just that life will be more boring being a loner , haha.

Well , i suppose anything that happen i just take it in my stride to let others be happy even when it makes me unhappy , well that is just me , if ppl dont mind losing me as friend , so be it =)

Nobody needs one another to survive , u just need to learn how to be independent , pride also matters a lot in this case , especially to people who cant lose their pride , haha.

It takes 2 hands to clap also , so whatever problems that cant be settled by you urself , bo bian u need to see the face of the other party also .

till nowwwwww busy liao , cyaa

Hmm Hmm

I know i never spend much time decorating my blog or whatsoever as u all know.

LOl

Hmmm , zijie is very hardworking , almost posting everyday , bing chen and meng yang is quite slack with their posting , wei xian , also slack la.

As for me , also slack la , i rarely post , sometimes got mood to post but just lazy ?!

Not always got something which i got the urge to post it but most of the time its laziness , anyway anything that i posted only my readers get to know it and its like less then 10 person ?! ( definitely )


Meng yang post is quite funny , though some of the stories seems profound to me , as i dont understand it -.-

And some is boring , lol , so when i am bored then i will read it , whatever.

Only when i am bored will i post or read other blogs.

It's a way to kill time also , but when reading touching , inspiring stories , etc.

It really tempt me to blog out my thoughts , etc .

But on 2nd though , its nothing much also -.- , meng yang blog about what he feel of something all is his opinions which i like sia , as in virtual world is a place for u to voice out what u feel , limiting to those people who want and u allow to hear ur thoughts.

If u blog about daily life happening , hmmm , its nt that boring ?!

Even when ur that particular post is really interesting , what interests me most is knowing on a particular day , time , or what particular event that sets the blogger thinking , giving out opinions , which he/she didnt had a chance to directly say it out loud , so he/she decided to post it in a virtual world , well at least people definitely feel much safer or feel more comfortable , posting in a virtual world , immediately posting is recommended cos if u drag , u may not remember it fully or laziness will stop u from posting or u may feel its not that important to post it anymore.

Doing anything on impulse , base on instinct is not that good after all , but what is ??

Something maybe is right when u do it base on ur instinct , but when u spent time thinking how to do it , maybe u will do the same thing and waste the time that u spent , if u spent time thinking and instead do the wrong stuff even though u had wasted ur time making a precise decision based on what u think , aint that worst?

Though people may think that , having spent time thinking , deciding on a decision means that they are not doing in on impulse on instinct or whatsoever and letting themselves be more secure about the decision , even if they made a wrong decision they may not regret as much as when they do it on impulse , but they dont realise , only when on that critical situation will their brain function to its max trying to do something right* so doing something base on instinct on critical situation aint that bad after all.

If u are thinking whether to head left or right , without any clues or even when u tried to find clues , all the clues* are base on ur knowledge to deem that it really is clue and aint a fucking piece of useless objects.

But if u base on instinct , if ur instinct sense nth , u base on ur luck.

Rather then wasting time deciding on where to head , god knows if something is going to kill u anytime and u are spending ur fucking time , u just fucking head to where ur luck or whatsoever leads u to.

Anyway , this all maybe is just pure bullshit cos its all base on what i think , LOL.

When its a critical situation , not god knows , even i know u wont spend ur fucking time thinking and just head wherever ur brain leads ur legs then ur legs lead u to without spending time pondering.

=D , long long time one post , can tok many ppl de daily post liao , so compared to length , i posted a lot days le

SHit

Ai ya , just a short post , knn if we win some team then will lose to the exact same team , wtf ?!!

That meant that we dont totally own them , or i say we are nt better then them , cos we can even lose to them -.- , oh man this is total , bullshit............

Only by nt losing to the exact same thing everytime u challenged it , can u declare u are better then them.

Losing is bullshit , When we lose , we must revenge and try our BEST TO WIN !!

Ok , some people dont have this mentality -.- , thats y they heck .

Well , if i had confident i can win smt , i will definitely try to win it , no matter how many times i lost.

Alive Blog

Ok , to stop people from announcing that my blog is dead , i hereby declare that www.rivalbotak.blogspot.com IS A PRO AND ALIVE BLOG , objective completed , mission accomplished.

Now to the next objective that is ( I dunno what is the next objective )

Mission accomplished.

Christmas Eve Present

3 dec my court -- 4 dec wx court , say want go wx court and celebrate edmund birthday on 3dec of december, at least i decided on those stuffs.

But never get to do it , cos inside CPC , bo bian lor . Hope to see wx at least for once on dec 3rd inside CPC but also didnt get the chance zzzzzz. ps.

Wanna know what happened to wx , but only get to know around one week later , when my parents visited me for the first time and i ask them.

Glad to know that he got probation , though its also boring , but better then in prison ( Yeah )

Well , used and quite suited to night life , but bo bian , though inside a lot ppl got say how to breach probation safely , got one also kept confirm can , but i told him , there's nothing as confirm to me , 99.9% still can , i just dont really take confirm as a word in my dictionary , though it really is in the dictionary , just not mine la , LOl

Its too important a word to be taken lightly , so i dont dare to use it =D

Though at some instant , the outcome is so damn obvious that miracles cant happen .

Oh ya , i dont like the word *miracle* also , those type of words that is not absolute , seems pointless to just speculate the outcome. We cant hope for a miracle to happen , though if we can make something happen ---- It wont be a miracle , right?

If there's a possibility of a different outcome ---- the word *confirm* cant come in right ? 99.99% the most right?

So for people who actually read my blog , these are just info to know me better =D , even if i really said those words , its either in jest or i am just speculating.

Yea , speculating the outcome while using the word *confirm* , its being said out of my mouth , but in my heart i dont meant it , haha , no matter what are the odds , nothing is absolute , i think!

Ok , inside 3 weeks is hell , will only be specific about the details when i got the mood.

Inside i am thinking of nth much , the most only daydream , wont got emo mood , or a weird feeling that will be enhance with emo songs ( which i love , cos the lyrics is fabulous ! )

Maybe cos its too uncomfortable inside , with restrictions and i knew i wont be out.

While i am secure , comfortable and delighted at home =) , so i can be myself without worrying about anything , and when i got nothing delightful to do while at home , those emo moods will generate ?

This is how i think of it la , but all kind of feelings that people felt makes ur life colorful !

quite long bo see jd , first time see him , when he visit me when i am out of jail , his hair is longer !

Wx hair is shorter , the rest still same i suppose , character same , feelings same , haha

3 weeks still ok i think , if 1 year , still remember me , but feelings will change somehow i suppose.

Ok gtg sleep soon . Night , my Readers !

Last but not least , my Christmas Eve Present is either rtc or probation , but seeing wx , my prejudice case , others inmates telling the odds of my case , my probation officer and parents telling me the outcome of my case , i am quite certain that i will get probation as my present , but still nervous as always =D.

Always remember ! There's no right or wrong in this world. There's no fairness in this world also! Everything is determined by humans , flawed human follow flawed rules set by flawed people ( no matter how clever or amount of authority a human has , he/she is flawed.)

16 more days to go

16 more days and u are out !!

I will be posting at intervals !!

Went pub with sanford and ah yong , lol with ah yong definitely nt fun.

Haha i am as sick as u now , kept cough like fuck and sick.

Same illness siol.

Going out need see people de to be fun like i told u , w/o u , all the fun is reduced.

With ah yong , we nt close and with his character definitely nt really fun.

As in we need more own ppl , then got outsiders also fun , we can do our own stuffs.

Sanford jio then i go sia , give him face , cos i sick , broke and w/o u just seems moodless.

Been going through our photos tgt , including reagen and ah quan also =(

Miss ah quan also , long time never see him le.

Wait u out and w/o probation or etc then we go play again ba.

Our photos of our group together definitely bring nostalgic memories , now only left me and reagen !! Ah quan always busy and rarely in contact and u been inside !

Whatever i do and whenever i go , some stuffs will just spark the memories that we once had , and those nostalgic memories which i wont forgot , each of my bro de memories all will be stored inside me and never be erased .

Haiz , with those memories yet u are nt around now just felt weird. Waiting for u to be released to create new memories =)

Random

Well , i wonder if the horoscope is really true?

Though i believe in horoscope but nt fully , maybe only 70% ?

I , myself , dont even know how much i believe in something , well i believe cos i am just a typical human living in this vast , cruel and pathetic world.

Only the fittest can survive , this is totally true.

There are a lot of species living in Earth , tons of organism , but not all can compromise and survive together , one thing for sure ; Not all species said the same language.

Since we cant communicate with one another , we do not know what one another wants , BUT one common thing that can be sense with our 7th sense , which is the common sense and it is Survival.

Yet we humans kills ants , lizards , bugs , tiger , sharks , snakes , etc.

Cos they invade our privacy , attempt to harm us , steal our food , steal our oxygen , steal our properties , steal our space and whatever reasons that humans can think of , be it totally ridiculous , as its humans nature to find a scapegoat for whatever wrong we had committed.

This meant that its impossible to wash away one sins.

Well , my conclusion is , even the same type of species cant live in harmony , why even bother to care about other species.

Last but not least , only the fittest survive be it any species.

Hope for a War against all , only the fittest one or family can survive. =D

Life is short , we live to die.

Time heal all wounds but the consequences is , time kills.

Quotes

Read many quotes , from different blogs , either extracted from other " average people " or from those people that are qualified to quotes short but meaningful theories on life.

I said those ppl that are qualified cos , they studied a lot , have good qualification , a lot of people believed what they wrote and i believed that what they wrote makes sense also =) , using short and simple words to summaries one piece of the complicated puzzle of life , as i find life to be countless of pieces of puzzles , one simple quote cant fully summaries it.

Those "average people " are people like u and me , their quotes aint many ppl read it , aint many ppl believe in it and they dont hold high qualification , like Masters , Doctorates which makes them more "clever" as people will said it and thus more qualified to quote.

But i believe , every quote that make people , if its logical la , its after careful and thoroughly
thinking then they wrote it and it consists of either what they experienced of life or what they think of life or even what they think of their life.

Or maybe , they read quotes from all over , and devise their own quotes after studying what quotes other people quoted with different meaning.

What u typed , i believe if it makes sense to you , thats what matters the most i suppose unless u wanna propaganda it or u wanna gain fame , recognition , power!? through those "meaningful" quotes that u quoted.

Though people with qualification will gain fame , recognition and etc faster with their quotes , as people believed they deserve it as they got those qualification which not all people can get it. For those really talented , i admire them and they really deserve to live.

Not to say that average people sucks , but just they doesnt contribute to life as much as people of higher qualification since its a realistic world out there that sees ur qualification More then ur iq or eq ( they are lazy to do these test that i think matters more ) .

Everybody will be motivated and work hard , if there is a purpose in doing so only.
So this means all people that are deemed "lazy" by others , is just that they didn't find their purpose in working hard for that particular stuff , they will work hard some day after they found their purpose , well there's gonna be something that somebody will like right =D.

So u and me , average people , we doesnt deserve as much to live as those Talented people =)
Reasons are simple , u should know it as well as i do .

IF NOT U REALLY DONT DESERVE TO LIVE , GO JUMP AND BE SLAYER .

P.S JUMP HIGHER THAN THE 10 STOREY COS GOT A BOY JUMP FROM 9 STOREY AND HAVEN DIE SO CANNOT BE SLAYER , MUST INSTANT DEATH OK . D:

Weird

hmm, everything to me is ever changing , examples are friendship , kinship and everything else la.

Nothing stays forever , time changes everything , cos with time then will be effect , time affects everything , we do different things every single seconds , thats y everything changes.

So i dont dare to group stuffs too closely or too offensive , who knows , enemies might become friends someday , so if i had enemies just let it be rivals and nt arch-rivals.

If i have friends , let it be , and not buddy , close-friends , good friends maybe it still can be grouped but buddies and stuffs are too *serious* , anything can happen , even through games , work or school stuffs we can drop from buddies to just normal friends as argument can occur.

So its best to decide and weigh everything carefully before u make any unnecessary changes though u can change them anytime , we can be buddies today , after a quarrel , enemies the next day.

But if u keep on changing those somehow *serious* decisions that u made , firstly u dunno what the other party thinks and secondly , u will regret ur decision that u made the first time.

Last but not least , ppl who kept on changing what they think about something , is seems as indecisive and are not really that welcome.

yoyo

yoyo , here to post smt new for u all to read !!

Recently had been tired easily !! last time can ton till damn late now cant damn late liao , oh no !!

And i was always hungry during midnight but damn lazy to cook =x

well , since nth to do only can watch anime or movies , or rotting.

When i was tired i felt like sleeping , but then freesky had some stuffs to wait to do , so cant sleep yet =x and it can be for hours , lol , killing time watching movie , and ton , anyway having patience and perseverance is a good sign =)

I started late in the garena game freesky , to be the proest , i needa spend more time on it , cos i dont wanna spend money , a bit waste to spend on these kind of games , example : maple.

Those online mmorpg , u just need to spend more time u can get proer , y waste ur money ?

If u dont have time to spend its ok also , just a game , unless u really wanna win others.

Having a goal or having a purpose in life makes it more meaningful , likewise in everything else , be it games , sports or w/e , if u just do smt for the sake of being force ?

U wont end up doing well , even if u had talent in that particular stuff.
Do it for others unwillingly ? also same .
If its willingly it wont fare that well too , cos its for others .

Doing it cos u set a goal in it , or u have a purpose in it , u will excel.
U will put in more effort to make ur goal realise and purpose fulfilled , thats why =D

If u lack a purpose or goal in doing smt , maybe u haven found it yet or u really doesnt value that particular stuff . If u doesnt value it , u wont have a goal , and whats ur purpose of doing that stuff?

Either forced , killing time or u havent found the merits yet.

I had a purpose in playing freesky , to get free gm =D initially.
My goal at first was just to claim all the free gm quests.

But after i claimed all , the game was quite stupid as it was simple to understand everything , it just takes time. Nothing was really difficult or complicated , the graphic was below average to me , the gameplay was a waste of time , really a game to kill time.

But since i claimed gm , its a waste of my effort initially to play and i can kill time , cos it doesnt requires much attention , only some from time to time , so i wait till the time is required then i go do it.

While waiting , i can play dota , etc , at least i got a variety of things to do , if not it will be so damn bored.
Its for people that are free from time to time and not all the time =D , though the more time u spend on it , the better it will be =) , but still it aint need so much time like other rpg games , example : maple ( u can spend 24/7 on it because theres nth for u to wait while playing the game)

Also some of my friends are playing also , friends that are playing the same game together is much more fun =D .

1.Got one more topic to talk about ( while outside )
2.We can bond while playing together ( though quarrels may occur )
3.Got friends to aid u in the game ( if they bad friends , can harm u also )
4.Got friends to accompany u playing the game or chatting in the game ( though they may ignore u )
5.U can realise which of ur friends are not worth making by points 3 and 4 ( A game may be minor , if minor stuffs can hurt ur friendship , its not worth even making xD )

What i believed

Fate is the real mastermind of people's life though you can choose to fight it , even if you win , you only can win one battle at a time , given how many battles are there in an average human life , what are the odds?

Not to consider , when you are born with ur intellectual , genes , looks , parents , siblings etc . Its all been decided , for that part fate had obviously won , u cant fight that.

Well all that u are born with u can change them , or i say that it will automatically change , cos what ur parents and siblings do, u couldn't fully control them , but yet it will affect u somehow as they are ur family and its fixed.

As for u urself , ur intellectual , looks , gifts , talents or disability all can be changed too , though people said that the original is the best , well there's no right or wrong in this question , whether its been artificially enhanced or its the original there's both good and bad cases.

Like u can take pills for a stronger body or mind , but it might have side effects in the long run or some people are allergic to the pills while some are not. So everything had good and bad.

But if u had a worst fate , its definitely hard to fight against it , if u are born gifted , well most of the stuffs are easy for u , if u are disabled , definitely life is gonna be tough.

There are cases where people can paint beautifully with their legs ! But they definitely been through a lot then people who paint with their hands. Whatever u do , no matter how hard u try to fight it , fate definitely wins (overall).

And i believe that life is totally not fair , surely there's people that fate are biased on.

That's why they had gifts , while some don't . That's why there are pretty and ugly girls , handsome and ugly guys.

While the 2nd half of your life are earned by u urself , but its inter-linked with the first , as everything that happened before affects what happen after , aint that right and obvious?

U reap what u sow , u work hard before , u will get ur rewards after. ( Simple example )

So what happen when u are born , all is inter-linked with what u wanna do in ur life.

U can give up when fate is cruel to u or fight it , fighting it is tough but at least it makes ur life easier after u reap what u sow , LOl .

When fate totally loves u , ur life aint so complicated , u can find ur path easily and achieve success easily , but the term " u reap what u sow " still comes in after all.

People who said that life is fair , or fate is fair etc are all bullshit , u need to open ur eyes wider , when u are born disabled means u will have good parents ? Or means u will be rich ?

When u are gifted means u will have a terrible family ? What u are born with , DEFINITELY aint the same as everyone else , confirm plus chop , everyone will have a different life , it aint the same when u weigh it .

If not y the african kids are so pitiful ? born terrible , life after they are born also is terrible, lmao

Get a life , those blind asses. Oh and the term motherfucker is just so nice* to use it , LOl.

Well since 2nd half of our life are governed mainly by us , still a better life can go on =) (after some hard work , of cos)

Moral of the story : U reap what u sow after fate had toyed with u and be contented with what u have to be free of worries.

P.S : What i meant to be contented with what u have means to be really CONTENTED , even if u are born blinded or with only a few years to live and had to suffer pain for 24hrs per day , be CONTENTED and just R.I.P or else u will start whining like me =)